Do you ever have moments like this...

There are somethings we do in life that I sit back and wonder what the heck was I thinking... I won't go into those decisions or actions at this time its a longer story for another day. I know some of you understand that sentence because at some point in all of our lives we've had that moment (or two as in my case). I say all that because many people have asked me why India...

All I can answer is I don't know. I have no idea why God has called me to India, to this mission, for 6 months. I have no idea why it was The 7sisters international organization that I am going to work with. I do not know anything that God has planned. All I know is that he is doing things I can't understand nor see at this time, but I believe that they are going to be great.

Jesus replied, "You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand." John 13:7

You see I have failed many times in life. I have made many mistakes. I am not the prime example someone who should be sent on this work. I have a past, as do some of you reading this. I have things I am ashamed of, embarrassed to be associated with, and try on a regular basis to forget.  I know that the enemy likes to play and remind me of these things and heck he does a great job of reminding me that no one who knew me the way God does would ever want to send me to do this important work...

But then the voice of truth, light and love remind me that He does know me. He knows what I've done, He knows where I've come from, He knows my pains, hurts, bad choices, and regrets. Yet he still loves me. He still cares for me and He still wants nothing for me but a future of good and hope. And most importantly He chose me for this particular mission. I do not know what the future holds, I do not know what will happen in India. I have no idea what purpose I am going to fulfill by going. I know not what lies ahead. What I do know is that My God has control of this situation. He is with me always and will be by my side through it all. And that is what fills me with peace, hope and gives me the most comfort. So I am going to India to be amazed as I allow God to use me in any way He sees fit. After all He holds me in the palm of His hand and will never let me fall.

For those of you questioning if God could ever use you in His great plan read this and remember God calls those who He needs and then equips them with what they need to do the job.

One of God's great reminders that even with a past, regrets, or mistakes he can still use us after all:
Noah was a drunk
Abraham was too old
Jacob was a liar
Leah was ugly
Joseph was abused
Moses had a stuttering problem
Gideon was afraid
Samson had long hair and was a womanizer
Rehab was a prostitute
Jeremiah and Timothy were too young
David had an affair and was a murder
Elijah was suicidal
Isaiah preached naked
Jonah ran from God
Naomi was a widow
Job went bankrupt
Peter denied Christ
The disciples fell asleep while praying
Martha worried about everything
The Samaritan woman was divorced
Zaccheus was too small
Paul was too Religious
Timothy had an ulcer
Lazarus was dead

So found out more about airplane tickets today

So apparently it will be a 3 day trip to get to Assam India...
I leave on a Monday and go to O'Hare from there to London England which I leave on that Monday night fly overnight to London so arrive on Tuesday at 10am. From there at 11a I leave for Delhi and arrive in Delhi at 1:25am then I leave at 8am to Guwahati which is my home destination on Wednesday at 10:30am.

I can honestly say I didn't image it would take 3 days to get there nor can I say that I planned on it costing me $1,029 bucks to get there one way...

needless to say I'm about 600 shy of that amount... But I am trusting God and refusing to get discouraged or panic. I REFUSE!!!

"In God I trust, I will not be afraid" Psalm 56:11

Come on God I need you to show off for me in a BIG way!

If you feel like God is calling you to help you can donate here:
http://www.youcaring.com/mission-trip-fundraiser/Counseling-Human-Trafficking-Victims/28755

Or email me at saraibrown@hotmail.com and I will let you know my address for checks.
Otherwise please keep me in your prayers I need all the prayers I can get at this time!

Whew its been crazy

Sorry everyone that I have been off the map for so long! I got the news about India during the time I had midterms, then Thanksgiving happened and now well finals are next week!

To be honest I haven't had much time to think about India and what it means to God and myself. Nor have I had time to process exactly what India will be like, what I need to pack, getting a ticket, shots or insurance...

And to be quite frank I'm freaking out. I have some donations and I need to set up a bank account, I have to get a phone and people are asking if there will be a going away party. For those who are wanting to come we will be having a going away, birthday, and fundraising party on the same night b/c that's how I roll.

I am aiming for January 12th the last absolutely last day I can get tickets so I am hoping that I raise enough money by then to at least have my plane tickets. Otherwise I am pushed back another week...

Normally that alone would be enough to freak me out, but the one thing I have learned from this whole experience is this will happen on God's time not mine. And His time is perfect! So I am waiting and sitting back trying to pass school so that my WHOLE attention can be on India next week and from that moment on.

THANK YOU ALL for all the continual support and prayers! I love you and still need them so please, please, please keep me on your church prayer chains, in your personal prayers, and know that I appreciate everything you are all doing to help me keep doing what I've been told to do for the kingdom of God!

 



I do promise you more updates once finals are done! Pinky swear ;)