I understand the feelings of being stuck. I’m there right
now. It might not seem like it but, I feel utter useless for the Kingdom. I
feel stuck. I know where I want to be and I’m pretty sure that is aligning with
where God wants me. I mean so far he hasn’t popped up any red flags or anything
and yet… I feel stuck. This is the time of my life where I have the fire, the
burning need and desire to serve Christ and yet I sit at home in my basement
wondering now what?
Even though I have made the plans, I have enrolled; I have
picked the classes, prayed over possible ministries, asked God yet again now
what? I am still here in this place waiting. I am hoping the plan is to start
doing more of the counseling stuff this fall by freeing up my schedule to be
able to serve Him better and yet that hasn't necessarily aligned itself either.
I have all this energy and pinned up desire to serve
somewhere, some place, somehow that I almost feel desperately stuck and not
going anywhere due to lack of response. I keep yelling out to God, “here I am
Lord, send me!” and all I keep hearing back is *chirp, chirp, chirp* and utter
silence. I know this is not a reflection on me or at least I hope it isn’t a reflection
on me. But, in these moments sometimes it feels so hard to talk to Him to
understand that He has this. Sometimes when I pray and call out I get nothing
and that is even more frustrating. Yet I have to remember that it is all in good
time. That he knows me better than anyone.
The other day I rec’d this letter from a great and dear
friend. I attempted to read it to my mom but, in the process ended up crying
like a baby. It’s a letter from God to us His child. In that letter it reminds
us of how much God loves us. Even when we are frustrated, sick, angry, or hurt
he still loves us and is still working in our lives to bring us closer to him.
My
Child,
You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1
You may not know me,
but I know everything about you.
Psalm 139:1
I know when you sit down and when you rise
up.
Psalm 139:2
Psalm 139:2
I am familiar with all your ways.
Psalm 139:3
Psalm 139:3
Even the very hairs on your head are
numbered.
Matthew 10:29-31
Matthew 10:29-31
For you were made in my image.
Genesis 1:27
Genesis 1:27
In me you live and move and have your
being.
Acts 17:28
Acts 17:28
For you are my offspring.
Acts 17:28
Acts 17:28
I knew you even before you were conceived.
Jeremiah 1:4-5
Jeremiah 1:4-5
I chose you when I planned creation.
Ephesians 1:11-12
Ephesians 1:11-12
You were not a mistake,
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16
for all your days are written in my book.
Psalm 139:15-16
I determined the exact time of your birth
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26
and where you would live.
Acts 17:26
You are fearfully and wonderfully made.
Psalm 139:14
Psalm 139:14
I knit you together in your mother's womb.
Psalm 139:13
Psalm 139:13
And brought you forth on the day you were
born.
Psalm 71:6
Psalm 71:6
I have been misrepresented
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44
by those who don't know me.
John 8:41-44
I am not distant and angry,
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16
but am the complete expression of love.
1 John 4:16
And it is my desire to lavish my love on
you.
1 John 3:1
1 John 3:1
Simply because you are my child
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1
and I am your Father.
1 John 3:1
I offer you more than your earthly father
ever could.
Matthew 7:11
Matthew 7:11
For I am the perfect father.
Matthew 5:48
Matthew 5:48
Every good gift that you receive comes from
my hand.
James 1:17
James 1:17
For I am your provider and I meet all your
needs.
Matthew 6:31-33
Matthew 6:31-33
My plan for your future has always been
filled with hope.
Jeremiah 29:11
Jeremiah 29:11
Because I love you with an everlasting
love.
Jeremiah 31:3
Jeremiah 31:3
My thoughts toward you are countless
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18
as the sand on the seashore.
Psalms 139:17-18
And I rejoice over you with singing.
Zephaniah 3:17
Zephaniah 3:17
I will never stop doing good to you.
Jeremiah 32:40
Jeremiah 32:40
For you are my treasured possession.
Exodus 19:5
Exodus 19:5
I desire to establish you
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41
with all my heart and all my soul.
Jeremiah 32:41
And I want to show you great and marvelous
things.
Jeremiah 33:3
Jeremiah 33:3
If you seek me with all your heart,
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29
you will find me.
Deuteronomy 4:29
Delight in me and I will give you
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4
the desires of your heart.
Psalm 37:4
For it is I who gave you those desires.
Philippians 2:13
Philippians 2:13
I am able to do more for you
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20
than you could possibly imagine.
Ephesians 3:20
For I am your greatest encourager.
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
2 Thessalonians 2:16-17
I am also the Father who comforts you
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
in all your troubles.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4
When you are brokenhearted,
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18
I am close to you.
Psalm 34:18
As a shepherd carries a lamb,
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11
I have carried you close to my heart.
Isaiah 40:11
One day I will wipe away
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4
every tear from your eyes.
Revelation 21:3-4
And I'll take away all the pain
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4
you have suffered on this earth.
Revelation 21:3-4
I am your Father, and I love you
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23
even as I love my son, Jesus.
John 17:23
For in Jesus, my love for you is revealed.
John 17:26
John 17:26
He is the exact representation of my being.
Hebrews 1:3
Hebrews 1:3
He came to demonstrate that I am for you,
not against you.
Romans 8:31
not against you.
Romans 8:31
And to tell you that I am not counting your
sins.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
Jesus died so that you and I could be
reconciled.
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
2 Corinthians 5:18-19
His death was the ultimate expression
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10
of my love for you.
1 John 4:10
I gave up everything I loved
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32
that I might gain your love.
Romans 8:31-32
If you receive the gift of my son Jesus,
you receive me.
1 John 2:23
you receive me.
1 John 2:23
And nothing will ever separate you
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39
from my love again.
Romans 8:38-39
Come home and I'll throw the biggest party
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7
heaven has ever seen.
Luke 15:7
I have always been Father,
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15
and will always be Father.
Ephesians 3:14-15
My question is…
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13
Will you be my child?
John 1:12-13
I am waiting for you.
Luke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad
Almighty God
If you want a copy of the letter you can get one hereLuke 15:11-32
Love, Your Dad
Almighty God
I still get teary eyed when I read that letter. And even though
I am stuck right now I know that this is an opportunity I can either use to
better myself and prepare myself for His work or I can choose to sit back and
pout wondering why I am not doing more.
My time will come and in fact to be honest I image my time
is now it’s just doing things I don’t immediately see the response of. Instead
of feeling stuck because my time isn’t more obvious to me maybe I should be
focused on receiving God’s love and mercy now in this moment. After all He did give the ultimate gift: Life, His Son and His love
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